11-09-04 Where Does The Time Go?
I am sitting in my one sanctuary in Buffalo, a coffee house downtown, and then I realize; the semester is almost over.
Sadly I have come to the conclusion that I am saddened that school, for me, is coming to an end. Most people are thrilled to be done but I am terrified. Buffalo and Canisius for that matter have been all that I have known for the past four years. I have only taken some short vacations so now the thought of going out completely on my own for once is smacking me in the face.
I have been coming to this coffee shop for 2 years and there is a thought that I may not stay in Buffalo and the places that I sought out for comfort and for fun won’t be accessible anymore. It’s all becoming increasingly scary for me to think about the possibilities that lie ahead.
I have been told by many people not to worry because I would probably never leave Canisius, and if I do, I would soon return. These are the people that know I consider Canisius home. As most people know it is exciting to be starting something new and to be moving on and trying new things. However, when I sit down and really examine it, it is truly the greatest change that I am going to go through so far in my life.
I couldn’t have been happier to move out of my house and go away to college. I was so happy to leave and shortly after I left I was homesick, I never thought it would happen. Now I don’t want to leave the place that I call home.
I am looking forward to the change. I always try my best to welcome it with opened arms, this is just one change that I am going to have to force myself to welcome.
Aside from all of the nostalgic feelings, of which I will probably write often, school is going rather well. I was able to get an internship at a news station here in Buffalo. I haven’t started yet and I won’t until January but I am looking forward to the experience. Senior registration has come and gone and most of next semester is being set in stone. There are so many things to prepare for and decide upon.
Maybe next time won’t be so reminiscent.
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